Carolina Bueno

 
 

I am a princess

By: Carolina Bueno

I am a princess, no! Wait I’m not a princess

 

I am a lady that is too hesitant

Like a Disney princess before magic creates her happy ending

I am scared to move away from the present

Because people will know I’m fragile and that’s too overwhelming

And like the children’s stories I’m used as a sheet of paper

Used to write stories about fair governments and justice

That now are just pretty words that are used as décor

 

I am a princess, no! Wait I’m not a princess

 

I am Pocahontas trying to play piano

Not knowing what do, re, mi, fa, so, la, ti even means

But knowing that they want to change my name to Elizabeth or Hannah

Yet still, I play nice because that is what we teach OUR queens

 

I am a princess, no! Wait I’m not a princess

 

I am a tsunami sucking in all the bad feelings

Knowing that each negative emotion is a step closer to hell

And I refuse to be stuck there like Cinderella

 

I am a princess, no! Wait I’m not a princess

 

I am a friend with packets full of forgiveness

Despite knife wounds that leave me like a crescent moon,

 

I am a princess, no! Wait I’m not a princess

 

I am a library packed of nerds reading science, math, and other “weird stuff”

 Quiet, like people without voices, who learn to stay quiet in order to stay alive

 Quiet like sleeping beauty waiting for her charming prince

 

I am a princess, no! Wait I’m not a princess

I am almost a princess

 

I am knowledge

I am growth

I wait for my happily ever after

So I am nothing without my goodness from above

My Father in heaven

Because I imagine that the Disney princesses pray to their love above

Help me put you and the world before me

Give me a humble heart

That will crucify the “I am”

So that I recognize that nothing is mine

For I am nothing and you’re my everything

And crown me as your princess in your kingdom

And yes, because I am a princess of God